i will survive

wows its really great my right hand is nearly handicapped alr.

i have to finish 50 frames (rendered drawings) by tonight.
i'm currently at..frame 30? ater..a couple of hours.
i'm drawing with such fury, agitation, speed and HAPPINESS my hand is trembling now.
shocked that i could still type.

o give me the energy.

i'd like to say that...

i like it when u call my name instead of aye.
(i like private names too(:)

I didn't really want to say this

But I don't like the way you say my name.

since feeling is first

since feeling is first
who pays any attention
to the syntax of things
will never wholly kiss you;

wholly to be a fool
while Spring is in the world

my blood approves,
and kisses are a far better fate
than wisdom
lady i swear by all flowers. Don't cry
--the best gesture of my brain is less than
your eyelids' flutter which says

we are for eachother: then
laugh, leaning back in my arms
for life's not a paragraph

And death i think is no parenthesis

i like my body when it is with your

i like my body when it is with your
body. It is so quite a new thing.
Muscles better and nerves more.
i like your body. i like what it does,
i like its hows. i like to feel the spine
of your body and its bones, and the trembling
-firm-smooth ness and which i will
again and again and again
kiss, i like kissing this and that of you,
i like,, slowly stroking the, shocking fuzz
of your electric fur, and what-is-it comes
over parting flesh . . . . And eyes big Love-crumbs,

and possibly i like the thrill

of under me you quite so new



EE Cummings.

I love this , it's so beautiful.. I don't dare to breathe when I read the first few lines.

flip?flop.

as i said, people who would take their own lives wont tell ppl that they are going to do it.

i can still rmb how my parents explode when they saw my results slip.

everyone hates me now.

so enjoy

i love u pls feel better:)

(i realised this can apply to all of u)

peiqi

I like it when I hear you call me Peiqi instead of PQ.

:)

angry

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i will turn over a new leaf.

messy messy!

wad a bad day i had yesterday.
i went to strings prac with sara and we had our burial there.
its was an ultimate humiliation to sightread in front of all those experienced players, and it didnt help that we we stuck with the first parts.(cos dun have score)
RAWRRRRR.
that woman beside me...super unfriendly. WANPING.i'd rmb u.
"can u manage the 1st part?"she asked with a sneer.
she isnt a good player herself.why that smug?
i tried making frens with her and she is so hao lian.she didnt even ask me wads my name. omt.
lian hao dun hao lian maH!

sara was asked to play a note and she play wrong..then the whole orchestra laughed.
we really wanted to dig a hole and hide.
then can u believe it? 3 hours there...we spent 2.99 hours counting bars..
65 bars..2 count note. then 25 bars...7 bars..16 bars.RAWRRRRRRR ALL REST!!
then MADNESS STILL NEED TO TRANSPOSE!!!!!!!!!!! we play horn in F ..but the score is not in F but in D/ E...just not F! rAWRRRRR. so when we play every note must shift down by a third if it is in D.
ITS MADNESSS.

and we were really stressed cos the strings sound fantastic.

practice finally ended at 930.
me and sara crying,"WU4 SHANG4 ZEI2 CHUAN2 LE4!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

the sch was rly dark..we couldnt even see wad we stepping on.
then the floor rly wet..we walk to the gate that time got a slope and it looked like a skiing slope so slippery so we had to turn back.
den take another route...i climb that wall den trip and hurt my leg.RAWRWAR)WIRA.
while walking to the bus stop we had to flip open our phones for light.
171 came and the wholeeeeeeeeeeee bus dun have a single soul except the apunehneh bus driver.

really scary.

i'm telling all of u..i've never typed so fast in my entiire life.




before that practice i went town w sara n lilin to buy kk's bd pres.we bought a $52 belt as AA as an AA battery and AA like his GOLDEN bag.
its really cool.
wad a suay day..while waiting for the bus my bra strap dislocated itself at the back..so it was dangling the whole way to school.
i felt really unbalanced.
lilin n sara keep laughing at me..den i also wanna laugh but cannot laugh too hard if not it will drop.



yesterday i was overwhelmed with confusion.
my thoughts are as messy as my hair now.
band seems flooded with politics.
i'm worried.

as for my problems..yes i'd triumph over them cos i wear triumph!
ahahHa.

i wish i could be more verbal too.
its really weird.
i can be super verbal and frank to ppl i'm okay with...
i can talk rubbish like a never ending river ..even with ppl like..CHIOK'S FATHER?
but when it comes to ppl close to me like my family, my mouth freezes like ice.
melt it pls.