i will survive

wows its really great my right hand is nearly handicapped alr.

i have to finish 50 frames (rendered drawings) by tonight.
i'm currently at..frame 30? ater..a couple of hours.
i'm drawing with such fury, agitation, speed and HAPPINESS my hand is trembling now.
shocked that i could still type.

o give me the energy.

i'd like to say that...

i like it when u call my name instead of aye.
(i like private names too(:)

I didn't really want to say this

But I don't like the way you say my name.

since feeling is first

since feeling is first
who pays any attention
to the syntax of things
will never wholly kiss you;

wholly to be a fool
while Spring is in the world

my blood approves,
and kisses are a far better fate
than wisdom
lady i swear by all flowers. Don't cry
--the best gesture of my brain is less than
your eyelids' flutter which says

we are for eachother: then
laugh, leaning back in my arms
for life's not a paragraph

And death i think is no parenthesis

i like my body when it is with your

i like my body when it is with your
body. It is so quite a new thing.
Muscles better and nerves more.
i like your body. i like what it does,
i like its hows. i like to feel the spine
of your body and its bones, and the trembling
-firm-smooth ness and which i will
again and again and again
kiss, i like kissing this and that of you,
i like,, slowly stroking the, shocking fuzz
of your electric fur, and what-is-it comes
over parting flesh . . . . And eyes big Love-crumbs,

and possibly i like the thrill

of under me you quite so new



EE Cummings.

I love this , it's so beautiful.. I don't dare to breathe when I read the first few lines.

flip?flop.

as i said, people who would take their own lives wont tell ppl that they are going to do it.

i can still rmb how my parents explode when they saw my results slip.

everyone hates me now.

somethings that have been said for too many times would appear to be lies..
"i was going to jump off the building"
sorry i couldn't be less harsh.. sorry i took it as just another 'threat' of yours..
sigh..

only about six months left to A levels.. for the first time i am really terrified.. i feel very unprepared and flopping A levels has never seemed more real.. i need to settle down..

time to study.. and remain focus..
well.. certainly easier said than done..
but i have to try.. because the stakes are high.. very high..

band concert was quite.. think 'delightful' would be the word.. kept me tappin to the rhythm at certain parts.. :) good job!

co concert in about a months time.. hope all goes well.. to put a nice full stop to my times with the pipa..

faith is dead without deeds
its important to do something about what we care and what we believe in; even if what we do would not neccessarily present the best results we hoped for, at least we did something, and its crucial in carrying on our faith
hm.. food for thought..

its hard to not take the easy way out..
but if you managed to, be glad that you're among the special few..

what's my dream?
i haven't thought about this for a long time..
hm... ...

(o.0)

so enjoy

i love u pls feel better:)

(i realised this can apply to all of u)

gift

ERH, maybe this will be my final private post here.
I don't like knowing people read.

Hm.

I presented him with a bible today. A gift, from me.

Felt confused that he would turn to me and say, "You give me a lot of things already". I probably am overdoing it, but I have no intention of making him feel paiseh! It's really just a gift. I didn't expect him to not want it :( How do I respond when he tries to pay me?

Please don't slow me down, am I going too fast?

heiyo! me back to talk a little..

yy din come to sch today.. but pq din noe.. so when she was near her class bench on level 1.. n saw a vaguely recognisable form on the bridge on level 2.. she tot it was her beloved yy.. thus she waved frantically.. only to get a bout of puzzling stares.. ha..

i ended lesson n walked back to me class bench.. i was lookin somewhere else when suddenly i heard an unmistakable squeal.. which grew louder by the moment.. i turned.. n pq was chargin at me from her class bench! (which is beside me class one) ha..

sorry pq.. hope i din make u sound too crazy.. :p but hey gal! glad ure so energetic on a monday! makes me happy to see u.. :)

anyway.. announce to make! i got a NEW PHONE! its the PEBL U6 from motorola that i've been droolin about since last yr end.. v nice design (or so i think).. connectable to pc via usb cable.. can charge it while plugged to the com too.. n a cool sleek keypad.. yay! :)

if my mood swings were plotted on a graph of happiness against the hours of a day.. i bet it will be sinosuidal graph with a frequency thats too high to be determined.. ok bit exaggerated la.. but u get e idea..

shall go on with playin with me phone.. :) cya!

peiqi

I like it when I hear you call me Peiqi instead of PQ.

:)

angry

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i will turn over a new leaf.